Life and Death are Inevitable but valuing that person is in our hands

Life is the hardest teacher, it gives the test first and the lesson after. This is how I am feeling right now. I am overwhelmed with so many emotions and didn’t know how to let it go. But some part inside me said lets capture this moment for my whole life and what better way than penning it down. I want my Nanimaa(Grand Maa) from wherever you are seeing to forgive me for taking some bits our relationship in public. Today my Grandma passed away and I felt as if one of the pillars holding me has fallen apart. I felt something inside me has died and I don’t know how long I can hold this building together. When I heard the news I went through all the emotions described below

“maine aapne har aansooo hassi me chupae hai.... pta nhi khuda ki kya marzi thi aisha sahlab aaya or hum beeche sadak me aapna rona hi nah rok pae.....Nanimaa these lines are dedicated to u .... u were the one who imbibed in me to keep faith in God.... Now I doubt those lines ....I needed u most in this phase of my life when he(GOD) has taken you away from me....”

All these few hours have made me revisit all the moments I have spent with her and how she has shaped my life. All the people who have known me as hard person and who know I don’t cry much like gals etc is partly due to her who has shown me the internal strength of a woman. She was one who imparted the fighting spirit in each of my cousins. On one hand she used to make us understand what’s right and what’s wrong and on another hand she was most fun loving person I have ever seen of her genera. She used to be part of almost all our pranks but still maintained a discipline in us. My cousin brother used to tease her to see her million dollar smile by calling her Sexy after release of Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. Imagine that my very cousin has a birthday today. Today all those years when we would wait for our breaks to meet her and have best of the time seems like a distant dream.Writing each word makes me weep but I would try to hold my tears here only as she has always said “Always carry yourself with dignity and grace”. Maintaining that head held high I can only say I truly love you nanu… you were my jaan . As in my childhood today also I am fighting with everyone to be with you, like old days please convince everybody that I can stay with you for few more days.

If anyone of you has any person whom you value a lot please express your love as soon as possible before its late and you regret it later and you have say the line "Life is the hardest teacher, it gives the test first and the lesson after". Today I find living in this reality tough and want to break all the worldly web apart just to be with her.

Does God Play Dice!!!!

When human being was not able to define the whimsical and capricious way of Mother Nature, he feared it and pantheon them as God. This puzzle seemed unfathomable for ages even by Great scientist. Its intensity can be understood by the famous statement by Einstein, who didn’t liked randomness in nature, “God doesn’t play dice”. The world has always kept surprising us and defining it in deterministic terms appeared distant dream till Edward Lorenz showed to the world through his Chaos Theory through his paper Butterfly Effect. When I read this theory I fell in love with mathematics “Ich leibe Es”. I am sorry to all those people who thought I might be writing about all the equation or how this theory evolved and I am just attaching the link for the same

“http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chaos_theory”

I will try to put across the theory in the simple manner correlating with real- life and I hope Edward Lorenz and Mandelbrot will pardon me if I am incorrect anywhere from wherever they are looking.

”Chaos often breeds life, when order breeds habit”.

How many times have you found yourself saying that I am standing on the almost same cross roads? Even in astrology life is decided in the set each of 7 years where it is said you will experience same situation every 7 years. Even in the noise around us we can find the moments of silence, it’s like having a similar triangle and keep on pasting a smaller similar triangle on it from all sides, the view would be of figure or diagram which we wouldn’t be able to describe but it is following a pattern .In the nature this pattern never repeats only to finite times. If it is so straightforward what took mankind to discover it may be because Not only does God definitely play dice, but He sometimes confuses us by throwing them where they can't be seen. I have always believed that God has given a jigsaw puzzle to be solved by each of us in this journey of life. So, on this journey we have to search for those concealed pieces and put them together. But if you find yourself in almost situation every now and then, it just means that we have not introspected ourselves and keep repeating the same mistake. All the chaos has a purpose in our life and follows an order. We have to learn our lesson well else we will keep experiencing the chaos. Although we are able to predict the stock market, weather and waterwheel through chaos theory but still universe’s nature or our life prediction can’t be complete in any definite manner as the Deity still has few tricks up his sleeve.

Paint it Red !!!

It’s bizarre for me to use the above phrase when I have dreaded the Red color in any form to maintain my calm and peace.


I would like to apologize to people who love red color, as unlike them, I was never able to associate red color with energy (aggression) or love. I have always held red with darkness especially the blood red color due to its association with death. If anyone has any qualms on my thoughts for red please scrutinize the title of Hindi movie “Red: the Dark Side”. Even the phrase Paint it Red originates from Melton Mowbray town which is well-documented and which also conveys to being involved in riotous spree. But this time red has not petrified but exposed its optimistic light on me.


Early this morning when I woke up and plugged in my Television set, I watched the song Ik Junoon (Paint it red) from Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara. Trust me it gave me passion to move forward in my life. True to the lyrics of the song I forgot all about the past, broke all the chains and left all the complications behind to live for the moment. Music has always played a vital role in my life but never knew it will lend a hand to lift my spirits once again after an infuriating last week where surviving even one day was tough for me. Due to mental chaos, I met with three accidents in a row but would say that With the Grace of God almighty, that time passed. I know this time will also pass but before this time goes away, I want to go on and on. I request all that please don't go green, let’s try together to view the world with different glasses and take the world and paint it red. So if anybody wants to celebrate the Tomatino festival in India instead of Spain this June to pristine after so much madness around them during and before this fest, do let me know. I would surely join. I am on cloud nine for no good reason apart from hoping to paint everything around me Red. I hope this doesn’t become another cliché which I would regret later in life.

Will Mango People Get their Aam desires fulfilled while walking on eggshell

All throughout my life music and dance have given passion to drive my soul at a level I can’t describe. They have acted as backbone in all phases of my life. Hindi music is enormous that we have songs for all seasons and reasons. Just take the Hindi film music only we have songs like “Dekha Ek khawab toh yeh silsile bane” or “Aaj kal phano Zameen“ or “Aaanewal Pal” of 1980’s to “Sheila Ki jawani” or “Muni Badnam hue darling tere liye” to latest to this list is “ Bhaag Bhaag DK Bose”. As the Indian society have changed so has changed the music to keep audience enticed. Neha Dupia has once said only 2 things sell in this industry “SRK or cheap slangs”. So when one stopped selling at box office, film makers have resorted to other.

But shift in just one year is mind blowing from a gal singing “Munni badnam hue” portraying the character of the someone who doesn’t fear to display her affection for a guy in this world to Sheila Ki Jawani , gal who doesn’t need a guy to make her feel pampered.She is happy just being with herself and knows how to enjoy life. So, easy expression of love has become and single status is now people vouch for. To challenge Munni and Sheila, Deepika Padukone added the quotient of Dum Maaro Dum Phir kaahe ki society, saali kaahe ka paakhanda where she just said stop carrying about this damn society and everyone has almost same needs so why care about the hypocrites. Then with jazzy pop beats Party Abhi Bakki Hai lyrics just conveyed where people have learned to party harder on weekends to avoid frustrations of the office. When gals were creating so much buzz I think guy felt left out and  its time to take the lead so our all time favourite bachelor living heart on the shoulders said what people have been saying to him Character Dheela Hai. Then the last one in the list “Bhaag DK Bose” was bizaare for me.First the lyrics “Daddy mujhse bola, Tu galati hai meri Tujhpe Zindagani guilty hai meri Saabun ki Shaqal mein, beta tu toh nikla keval jhaag, these lyrics made think how struggling the life of people have become but punch was the word “Bhaag DK Bose”. It was just accidentally that I realized this fact when I was watching the Zoom Channel and a director pointed out how can censor board approve of the “Bhaag D.K.Bose” Song? This compelled me to Google on the same and I just felt naïve. It just raised a question in my mind Are we really the Mango people with Mango desires or we are accepting whatever is coming our way. With all the tamaash going around us is it truly only the music being jeopardize or our souls? If somebody finds any retort to balance this act just help the emotional people who found peace in the music of Mozart or Pandit Ravi Shankar or Mohd Rafi or Kishore Kumar list would be long and today’s five minute fame songs.